One Of Those Days…

We’ve all had them, one of those days where everything around you makes you question what your working towards. I feel like I’ve had a lot of these days lately. I try not to let it get me down, but sometimes, it’s inevitable. I feel, when you’re writer,  there are a lot of things that can get in your way , slow you down, and/or bring you down. I know these thoughts are normal, and most writers consider themselves tortured. Now I know exactly why this is so true. Here are some of the things that get in my way and trip me up during my writing journey:

  • Inadequacy: I can’t tell you how debilitating this can be for the creative process. Social media can be wonderful for encouragement, but it can also show you how far you have to go to get to the level you need or want to be. “Everyone else seems so much better than me” is a thought I have often.  I’m one that usually has self-confidence, but I question myself all the time when it comes to writing. Yes, I know, this is normal, but it can be very hard to overcome.
  • Timing: This could be finding time to write, but more than not, it’s the timing being right to write. I’m trying so hard to be more disciplined in my writing, but it doesn’t seem to be working. I have to admit, I’m probably not trying hard enough. Having to to be in the mood doesn’t get me anywhere. I’ve always said that I hate forced writing, but if I want to grow, I need to write when it doesn’t necessarily feel right.
  • Distractions: I get distracted so easily, even if I’m in a quiet place. Normally, I like to write in a bookstore or a coffee shop, but I can’t always make it to those wonderful places. I need to focus, focus, focus!! And I need to do so, no matter the location or what’s going on around me. Sometimes I feel guilty for wanting to hide, and for ignoring emails and phone calls, but once the creative juices start flowing or if I’m trying to get them going, being a recluse helps. Finding a balance is key, and I think I’m still learning that.
  • My story: I love the story of “Amelia.” It’s been with me for the last four years and it’s such a part of me. After editing, editing, editing, and now, working on a complete rewrite, I’m scared I’ll lose my passion for the story. I’m also scared that the path of my main character is blurred and my vision is lost on where I want her to go. My goal for the next week is to focus on Amelia’s journey and hopefully everything else will begin to fall back into place.

These times of frustration will go away. Usually after a period of reflection and sharing, I see the light and write towards it with gumption! I hope this will be the case this week and next week, as I will have the time to concentrate on my writing more than I have in the past month or so. What’s also nice is, my husband and I are taking a trip very soon, and hopefully that will revitalize some of my creativity. Travel is always good that way.

Writing isn’t easy. Staying focused is even harder. The everyday life going on around us can take grip and not let go. The passion has to stay lit just enough to not allow us to give up.

I don’t want to give up. I won’t give up. I can’t give up.

Nobody trips over mountains.  It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble.  Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain.  ~Author Unknown

Until next time…

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10 Comments

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10 responses to “One Of Those Days…

  1. Hey Amy,

    Boy, I hear you. I can totally relate to your feelings. Your experience sounds so much like mine. Easily distracted, struggling to find balance, endless editing, working on the same book for several years without completing it. I’m in the same boat. But there is hope. Two of my writer friends told me about a writing course by Margie Lawson, psychiatrist turned Author. She helps writers with many things, like defeating self-sabotage and deep-editing for producing the best story possible. I’m doing the Defeating Self-Sabotage one right now, and man, does that one ring true for me. I’m eager to continue through the lessons every day until I stop getting distracted and stop struggling so I can enjoy writing and creating stories people will love. Maybe this will help you too? I’ll let you know how much this helps me when I’m further into the course, but I finally have hope now that I’ll finish a book, and continue on to my next one. I love to write. Wishing you the best of luck.

    Chris

  2. Amy you have what it takes.Keep keeping on.You have so much to offer to so many.

  3. I tell my writing students that the famous, accomplished writers we all admire, and whose books we buy, have the same difficulties the rest of us face. They are just determined to overcome them.

    One thing that works is to make a promise to someone that you’ll pay them $50 (or more!) if you don’t deliver 10 pages say, by the end of the week.

  4. P.S. Working with an editor or ghostwriter like me can help! 😉

  5. Hang in there! We all have those days. Everything you mentioned sounded just like my own life. I bet every writer can relate. I have just one suggestion to help with your fear of losing passion for your story. You may want to work on another project for a while. Really. I struggled with a manuscript for a couple years (4 major rewrites), hated it, and could never get it right. Then I started a new project and rewrote it many times. When I went back to the previous manuscript, I had it all figured out – I LOVED it. Like magic. But my mind must’ve been working on it all along. For whatever it’s worth!

    • Thank you so much for your comment. I agree with you about trying to write something else. That’s one reason why I started a second blog. I just need to begin doing it! I should think ahead to a second book too. It’s all so new to me, so I appreciate your advice. It gives me hope.

  6. Bob of Burke

    Persevere. Best wishes.

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