Encouragement and discouragement can come from many places. What we do with encouragement can take us to high places, but once we let discouragement in, we go crashing to the ground. Writing a novel is a roller coaster of emotions. One day, I feel like I love my story and I’m doing a great job. Then the next day, I hate it and feel I’ll never be good enough to be published. Lately, I’ve been on the discouraging end of the writing process.
I’ve been writing, editing, and re-writing Long Road Home for over four years. I’ve spent thousand and thousand of hours writing and working on this story, yet I’m still no where close to being done. It’s not ready to see the world and I question whether it ever will be. The expectation for good writing and a good story is set so high that I definitely question myself and my ability to please the reader. Yes, I like it, but that’s not enough.
I’m not giving up. I will always work on Long Road Home, but I’ve made a decision to work on it silently. Please don’t take this wrong, but I’m done with sharing the process. I will still write blog posts, but they won’t be about writing my first novel. They’ll be about my simple love of writing, and most definitely, about those things that drive me crazy about writing.
I was about to throw Long Road Home in a drawer and give up on it for good. I was completely frustrated, torn down, and lost… not only about the story itself, but also about my ability to write a good story. Then I got the best, most simple, advice from my husband. He said, “Follow your heart.” And that’s what I’m going to do. My heart is in this story, so I’m going to continue to work on it, but I’m going to do so silently. Not talking about or blogging about my novel is a personal decision, and it’s not a bad thing, but more of an introspective thing.
I hope to one day speak and write about my novel with a loud and proud voice, but until then, I look forward to blogging about many other writerly topics and I hope you’ll still follow and support this progressing writer.
Until next time…