Category Archives: June 2012

Restless Mind Syndrome

Here I am, in Vermont, working hard on Amelia and it’s been going well. I’ve made good progress and my time here has been productive (I’ll do a separate post on this), but the past two days have been weird. I’ve felt this before and it’s annoying as hell. I have so much going on in my head and I can’t pull it together; I can’t get anything on paper.

My restless mind seems to be screaming at me, “Amy, stop! Let me work on my own for a while!”

Then I say, ” NO! I’m on a roll. Don’t stop me now!”

Today, my mind won.

We’ve all been there. Restless Mind Syndrome is a part of most writers’ lives and we all deal with it differently. Is there a right or wrong way to approach this inevitable, writer’s demon? For me, so I don’t mistake it for procrastination, it’s key that I’ve become aware when my mind needs time to work its magic alone.

Here’s what I mean:

Some days, I don’t feel like writing, but know if I get focused, it’ll come together…but procrastination kicks in. Some days, I may not feel like writing, but I’m still creative and imaginative, so I’ll take notes and I feel productive. Then, there are days like today when I truly want to write and I feel I have good plan pulled together to get a lot of words written, but nothing…absolutely nothing. I tried all my writerly tricks, and again, nothing. That being said, I ‘ve felt the heaviness of thoughts and my mood has been quiet. I can’t pin-point it, but I know my mind is working on plots, characters, scenes…so, I give in, and let it do its thing.

Guilt. That used to be what I felt when this happened, but I’ve learned to let that go. Just because I’m not putting pen to paper or fingers to keyboard, doesn’t mean I’m not working on my story. The mind is a powerful thing and when I get the feeling it needs its time, I’m going to give it time. In the end, it always ends up being more productive than if I force it.

Restless minds are good for us. It means something’s going on, something’s working, something’s about to produce itself. Embrace it and watch comes of it.

Until next time…

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Amelia Whispers

I want to give an update on my next steps with Amelia. You already know from my last few posts that I put her away for a while. I knew when I did this, she wouldn’t like being on the shelf, and it wouldn’t take long for her to begin to speak to me again. She’s been whispering to me about what she wants to do and where she wants to go. Believe it or not, right or wrong, I haven’t taken one note or written down one idea. I promised myself I wouldn’t touch the manuscript at all, no matter how hard it would be. However, Amelia is getting impatient and I think I have a good sense of where I want to head with the story.

Here’s my thinking:

I’m going back to the original story, while intertwining some of my rewrite material. During the second edit, I changed the story completely. I liked where I was headed and I liked the new elements I had added, but I missed my original vision of the story. My editor had given me some wonderful advice on how to get out of my “stiff” writing, but while switching things up,  I got lost. It didn’t matter how good the new content was, I couldn’t force it into the storyline. That’s what lead me to sit the story aside and reevaluate what I wanted to do and where I wanted to the story to go. I’d been working on it for so long and it bothered me it wasn’t the same story at all. Amelia’s story was no longer Amelia’s story, so it’s time to go back to the beginning.

I leave for Vermont on Wednesday where I’ll have a week and a half to myself to work through the story. I’m going to take it page by page and see what stays, what goes, what needs to be added, and what needs to be changed without losing focus of the original plot. It’ll be a challenge, but I look forward to see what will come from it. I’m going to take everything I’ve learned, step into my imagination, and let Amelia take me where ever she wants to.

I’ll keep you posted! I hope this next part of my journey with Amelia will lead me closer to the end.

Until next time…

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