Boy, this is a hard post to write. I’ve written it five times, five different ways. I guess the best way to say what I want to say is to just come out with it.
So, here it goes.
I’ve come to the conclusion I’m not quite ready to publish.
My goodness… that hurts a little to say aloud. No. It hurts a lot.
It’s not an easy decision to make. The thought of becoming a published author is so exciting and wonderful. However, when it comes down to it, it’s not about me, it’s about the story. The story and characters need more work, and as a writer, so do I.
Just so it’s clear, my publisher is behind me 100%, and they are more than willing to make a November release date happen. They’ve been nothing but encouraging and helpful and I’m so very thankful they’re giving me the time I need.
This was my decision and it comes down to me making sure the story I put out is the best story possible. I know, I know… it seems like I’ve been working on this for a long time, and well, I guess I have. But I can’t ignore what’s right in front of me while editing, which means I need to pay attention to what my gut is telling me.
It’s pride-crushing to admit this. To say, “I’m not good enough yet,” is difficult, but it’s the truth. I’d rather retreat from a release date, and continue to work on my characters and story, than to put something out there I’m not fully proud of. You, the reader, wouldn’t like that either. I’d rather disappoint on this side of the coin than on the other.
I’ve asked my publisher to push the release date to next year. Since it’s a holiday book, it’ll be next November. Yeah, it makes me sad to say that, but it’s the right thing to do.
I know this is disappointing to those who’ve expressed excitement about reading my book, and for that, I apologize. Please know I’m doing this so you’ll be a fulfilled and satisfied reader. I take that seriously.
So, there ya have it. Tough, tough decision.
Onward and upward!! Here’s to learning, growing, and becoming better at this craft I love so much!
Until next time…