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Fall and Rise

It’s time for me to fall on my writerly sword and put it out there for all to see:

I have failed at all things writing this year.

I wanted nothing more than to publish this year, but I allowed myself to lose motivation and I ended up steering myself away from my own goals. There are a lot of factors that come into play–my life has had many changes this past year–but, at the end of the day, it’s about me getting side-tracked and falling off the writing and editing wagon.

I don’t want to make excuses or blame life circumstances for my stumbles and lack of getting stuff done. It’s all about me losing focus. Period. Plain and simple. It’s 100% my fault.

If I want to succeed, I can’t dwell on my mistakes; I must learn from them and take the next steps forward. I love writing more than I can put into words. It’s my passion, but as anyone knows who’s followed their dreams, mistakes happen. All I can do is rise above and not give up.


I am committed to getting The Christmas Key into the hands of all who want to read it. I love the story. I love the characters. I love everything about it. I just need to tighten it up a bit and do one last read through (I know. I know. I feel like I’ve said that a million times). Then, I need to get over the fear of letting it go. I always feel there’s something else I can do to make the story better, but I know I it’s time to pull the trigger, and push my baby into the world.

I can do this. I can. I CAN! 

In addition to getting through the final stages of The Christmas Key, I’ve decided to also write a cookbook.

I’m certain some people are like, “What? You can’t even finish the book you’re working on. Why add more to your plate?”

Well, I’ve had the idea for a long time, and since Mom passed, it’s something I think about almost daily. So many of my recipes stem from something she taught me. It’ll be a therapeutic process and it’ll be a great way to mix my love of writing with my love of cooking and photography.

My approach to the cookbook will be to combine recipes with stories, tips, tricks, and alternative ingredients to make any of the recipes something you, your family, and your friends will enjoy.

I started working on it this past weekend and I’m happy with the approach I’m taking to the recipes and set up. I’ll tell you more as I get deeper into the process, but I think the concept I’m playing around with will be fun and easy for any level of cook.

As of right now, I’m not going to start a separate blog  for the cookbook. I’m not ready to take on the extra expense and responsibility. A cookbook entails so many moving parts (photos, cooking a recipe many times, detailed instructions, etc…), so I think it’s smart to keep it as simple as possible for now. Focus is everything. Once things come together, I’ll reassess the need for another blog.

I’ve had a Facebook page for my cooking for a while now. Feel free to go over and give it a like and follow along– Bubs’ Kitchen (Bubs is my nickname). I’m sure I’ll have a lot of fun  (and funny) experiences to blog about, so I’ll give updates here, too.

So, there you have it… my writing journey continues and I’m finding more passion along the way. Thank you to everyone for your support, love, and understanding. It means everything.

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.” — Henry David Thoreau 

Until next time…














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Filed under June 2016

A Dream Turning to Reality

Sorry I haven’t posted lately. It’s been busy in my little world the last month or so. I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season and the new year is treating you with love, kindness, and success.

Here’s a quick update on my end, which I’m very happy to post.

My editor will be returning my manuscript in the very near future. This will be our second exchange, so let the games begin! The next phase is in full swing.

I hear a lot of writers/authors get super nervous about the return of edits, and I was the first go-round, but this time, I’m more excited than anxious. I can’t wait to see what Jessica’s editing magic will suggest/fix/enhance. There’s ALWAYS something new to learn with each exchange of the MS (manuscript) and I definitely have a lot of room for growth.

Warning! A loving shout-out to my editor ahead:

I’m so thankful to have an editor whose passion for the written word is gigantic and genuine. She knows and respects the rough road a writer travels to get a finished product in their hopeful hands. This means a lot, especially when you’re a virgin to the (professional) editing and publishing process. I appreciate her, and her work, so very much. Jessica Swift, thank you for taking me on and working with me step-by-step through this crazy writing journey. YOU are exactly what I need to help me take my dreams and turn them into reality.


Our road in VT. It always leads me home, where my heart is.

Jessica and I also have a meeting next week to go through what I can expect going forward in the publishing phase of the process. This will be new territory for me, and I’ll be learning as I go, but man, how exciting  (and, yes, a little scary)! I’ll give more details once I know what they are.

By the way,  I don’t have an exact release date yet, but I should have a tentative one very soon

Before signing off, I have to give a shout out to all my family and friends who have stayed by my side and cheered me on. There have been times I’ve thought about giving up and keeping this author dream of mine to myself. Thanks to all the encouragement and support, plus my absolute love of writing, I will never give up. You all are the best!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Until next time…

Chase your dreams. Catch them. Turn them into reality. Never, ever give up. — a. weaver





Filed under January 2016

The Power Within

I bet you’d agree with me when I say:

It seems everyone has an opinion (or lots of opinions) on how others go about their life and how they approach their passions and dreams.

Sometimes, when the journey to our passion is broken, interrupted, messed up, off track, darkened, out of sorts– we look to others to help us, to give advice, to give their opinion. The only problem is, we get so many point of views we lose our own vision and purpose.

How do we weed through all the advice and pick out the right pieces that’ll hopefully lead us to a good decision about our path? I’ll tell you my thoughts on this in a minute. First, let me tell you what has me on this topic to begin with.

Lately I’ve been struggling, like majorly struggling, with my path and journey of writing. I’m not ready to give too many details, but I will say this, it breaks my heart to feel the lack of love for writing. I’ve never experienced it like this before.

At first, I thought I just needed to take a break. So, I took a break. That didn’t help.

Then, I thought I needed to work on a new story to get some fresh writerly blood flowing. That worked for a day or two, but the love faded all too quickly.

I finally reached out to some of my writer/author friends. I got some good advice and I got a lot of it. I also reached out to friends who aren’t on any sort of writing path. I got some good advice and I got a lot of it.

At the end of the day, I was still lost. Still confused. Still out of love.

*** Cue the tears ***

There were lots and lots of tears.

Finally, after too much time, I decided to clear the board and discard all the outside thoughts and opinions. I got down to what *I* felt. Not just the top layer of feelings, but the deep, dark, don’t really want to face it feelings–the ones that linger in the nooks and crannies of my heart and mind.

That’s not easy–AT ALL!

But, there ya have it. That’s my answer to the question I asked above: “How do we weed through all the advice and pick out the right pieces that’ll hopefully lead us to a good decision about our path?” We have to dive into the nooks and crannies of what we truly want from our dreams, goals, and passions.

Of course, there are always exceptions. There are times when we really need to depend on others and reach out. But when we still can’t get to the crux of our heartbreak, pain, and the lost feeling, we have to know it’s time to go deep and reach within ourselves.

I came to the conclusion that my passion deserves 100% of my love, attention, and heart. And when my passion fades, it’s up to me to figure out why. This is my journey and where I end up is completely up to me. Yes, listening to others is good, but sometimes, I have to trust myself, trust my gut, and trust my heart.

I think, sometimes, we tend to rely on other people’s thoughts and advice so if we mess up, or we don’t get things figured out, we won’t feel 100% to blame. Let’s not do that. Let’s learn to take full responsibility and control of our journey, dreams, and goals.

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Take the reins, take hold of your power, and even though the decision may not be easy, know you have all the control of where you go. Sometimes, that means changing your path or maybe even creating a new path all-together. Don’t be scared to do that. Revel in the fact you have the power to do so. Embrace the fact you may make the way for others to follow the new path you build. You never know until you start. Enjoy your journey, and when it gets hard, and you begin to lose your way, look within. You hold the power.

Until next time…

Everyday meditation:

Love life. Be Kind. Be genuine. Eliminate the negative, false, and vain. Peace, love, and happiness to all. 


Filed under June 2015

You Are Enough

Here’s quick inspiration for anyone who needs it.

We can be our own worst enemy. We tend to compare ourselves to others and think we aren’t good enough. We are way too hard on ourselves and put ourselves down.  We have to STOP!  Self deprecation will only hinder us from being our best. Yes, it’s good to be aware of our flaws–to always be improving–but we should never let ourselves get in the way of our own journey.

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Being authentic means loving ourselves so we can be genuine with others.

Know you are enough, just the way you are.

Until next time…

Everyday meditation:

Love life. Be Kind. Be genuine. Eliminate the negative, false, and vain. Peace, love, and happiness to all. 

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Filed under April 2015

Time to Get Dirty

As I’m packing to drive up to my writing haven, I check my computer to see I have an email from my editor. Wow! PERFECT TIMING!! I have some things to dive into when I get to Stowe and I’m excited to tackle things I haven’t thought of or addressed sooner. There’s no time like the present to dive deep and get down and dirty with my story!

IMG_9615I’ll keep you posted!

Until next time…

Everyday meditation:

Love life. Be Kind. Be genuine. Eliminate the negative, false, and vain. Peace, love, and happiness to all. 


Filed under April 2015

Move Along… Crappy Support Not Taken Here

A while back, I was talking to someone about something I was struggling with in my writing. This person is not a writer, but I thought that was okay. I figured they would at least listen, and maybe (hopefully), give me an opinion or an encouraging word. I was wrong. Here was the response:

“Well, you have your writer friends for that.”

This perplexes me to no end. Do writers have to only go to writers for help and support?

I was at a writer’s conference this past weekend and it felt so good to be surrounded by people who understand the passion, the struggles, and the love of the written word. The camaraderie was palpable and the support never-ending. Judgment? That word doesn’t exist among this group and I have to think that would be the case for most writer conferences and groups.

Here’s the thing– we (writers) have to leave those conferences. We can’t put all those wonderful writers in our pockets and take them home with us.

Does that mean we can only reach out online, or by phone, to those writers we’ve met? We can only get support from attending writer groups in our area? Shouldn’t we be able to speak about our profession, share our concerns about our work, and vent just like everyone else does about their jobs and/or passions?

There have been times when I’ve talked about writing to friends, and they say, “I don’t know what you’re talking about” or “I don’t understand how all that author and writing stuff works.” Or they slough me off and I feel like I should just shut up.

Well, guess what? I don’t know or understand a lot of people’s jobs, but they can still talk, rant, and go on and on about the shit they’re going through day to day, and I don’t make them feel bad for it. I ask questions to try to understand. I try to engage or at least lend my ears to listen.


Does writing really have to be such a loner profession that we can’t reach out to those around us– our friends, our family.

What if I want to (or need to) talk out loud about a scene or character? What if I’m excited about something that’s stewing in my brain and I want to share it. Do I have to save these moments for the mirror as I get dressed? Or do I dare chance talking about it and hope I don’t get an eye roll or “you have your writer friends for that.”

Maybe so. But, in my honest opinion, support goes both ways. Maybe the response should be, “Yes, you’re right. And next time you need to talk about your job, go to your coworkers, not me.”

No. I can’t do that. That’s not who I am. I don’t have that response inside of me.

Can’t we all respect, love, and support each other’s work and passions? Hmmm… that would be too perfect– make life too easy.

I guess, in the end, we need to hold dear and hold close those who love and support us with true caring and interest. Those are the people who matter the most. Those are the people who will be there to get us through the rough patches of our passions and celebrate the successes of our work.

Love, peace, and happiness to you all.

Until next time…


Filed under February 2015

Supporting the Expressive

Over the last six months, I’ve had a lot of conversations in my discussion groups and writer groups about how important support systems are. It doesn’t matter what your profession is, or what goals you’re striving to reach, support is necessary.

If I asked you, “Who’s your support system?” Would you say one name, two names, three? A lot more? In my opinion, the number doesn’t really matter. The quality of support is way more meaningful than the quantity. If you have the best, loving, caring, true, honest, unconditional support of only one, that’s better than sporadic, half-ass, maybe sometimes, conditional support of a million.

Creative minds can be difficult. Some of us want to spout out our ideas, and sometimes– uh, lots of times– it’s at the wrong time. How do we turn it off to make sure we don’t annoy those around us? How do we filter? How do we shut the hell up? It’s hard. It hurts. It’s a horrible thing to figure out, and I’m sure there are some who feel they shouldn’t have to “turn off” to please others, and that’s okay. To each their own.

All-in-all, creative minds are hard to tame, but in the last year, I’ve finally learned to just shut up– well, most of the time. I try my damnedest to not talk about what’s rumbling through my head. It’s hard, but I truly work on it. I go to my notebook or computer and let it come out that way. Is it healthy? Is it the best way? The right way? I don’t know. But I’ve learned there are some who don’t want to know what I’m working on, what I’m dealing with, what ideas I have for this story, or that story. In this case, I’ve realized it’s better to be quiet than to express.

However, those who want to be a part of my support system, will listen to me. Those who want to support me will ask me how I’m doing, what’s going on in my life, and they’ll want to know about my stories and ideas. In this case, I share and open up. Yes, once I get going, it’s hard to shut me up, but that’s who I am. Expressing myself is something I enjoy, but I’ve learned who appreciates my passion.


I’ve learned a lot about my creative mind and my creative tendencies– not just in the writing world, but in everything I do. I’ve realized I’m okay with filtering. I’m happy with not stating my opinion or point of view on everything. I’ve learned most people really, honestly don’t care. That being said, I feel my closest support system does care. That’s where the nugget of happiness is. That’s where I’m comfortable and feel loved. It’s where I don’t have to justify what spews out of my mouth, if I go on and on about a character I just made up, or I ramble about a story I have rolling and tumbling in my head. It’s where I’m okay and not judged if I don’t say something just right.

Don’t get me wrong, not everyone in our life has to be everything or *POOF* it’s not a worthy relationship. Each person has their purpose. All I’m saying is it’s good to know who’s unconditional and who’s conditional, that’s all. Conditional isn’t bad as long as you understand it’s just that– conditional.

We all need people who cheerlead us toward our goals and celebrates with us when we reach them. We also need people who’ll pick us up when we stumble and fall. It’s amazing how far an outreached hand can carry us when we feel like a failure. Encouraging words and fully-listening ears are great healers during discouraging times.

As life moves forward, as our dreams and goals are realized, as we go through hard times, and good times, it’s the love and support of others that we hold close to our heart. May we all not only have those people IN our lives, but may we all BE that person to those in our lives.

Love and happiness to you all.

Until next time…

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